Waiting…

A man’s heart plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps.
Proverbs 16:9 (NKJV)

Growing up, I always had a plan.  I would become a preacher.  A missionary.  An evangelist.  A secret agent.  Whatever the boy in me thought was the most important, the most exciting–these were my pursuits and dreams.

When I was 14 years old, I lived in Scotland with my parents, who were missionaries.  We took a trip that summer to visit missionary friends in Europe.  My plan became to be a missionary to France.

In college, I was exposed to urban ministry and how God was working in the city.  My plan became to be a church-planter in the great cities of America.

As I grew, the plans became more elaborate and researched.  The determinations became more serious and focused.

I never became a missionary to France.  I never started a church in an inner city.  I never trained to be a secret agent.  My plans were in shambles.  There were times I questioned myself about planning at all.

But along the way, I learned some valuable lessons about life, particularly the life of a follower of Christ.  I learned that WHAT I would do or WHERE I would go was not nearly as important as WHY I would do it and WHOM I would do it for.

As a young man, I had great dreams about what I could do for God.  Everything was about having the biggest and best ministry with the most impact and renown.  And sincerely, my dreams were about what could be done for God, not myself.  But they were my plans.  And I’m not sovereign or omniscient.  Not a bit.

I still make plans.  I believe in setting goals and trying to achieve them.  I want to recognize my strengths and God-given abilities and develop them and use them in the most efficient way possible.  But God changes things–sometimes when I least expect it.  And I’ve learned that’s okay.  In fact, I love to be surprised by God.  He always gives good gifts.

So, here I sit, one week after giving my last update on the latest plans I have: to become a senior pastor.  I have no doubt that God is in this transition in my life.  And though I wait on His perfect will for my life, I am not anxious.  Not at all.  He is showing me that He will direct my paths.  He is eliminating churches from consideration, and bringing new ones into my view.  In fact, I’m even having some initial discussion now with a church that wasn’t even on my radar until this week.

It’s exciting, this living by faith.  I never know what the next day, the next phone call, may bring.  But I know the One who knew about it when He formed me in my mother’s womb.

How can I not rest in His care? 

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2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Dad on March 21, 2008 at 7:29 am

    Yes Brian, living by faith is wonderful. I can see from what you have written that God continues to mature your wisdom in trusting in Him. One reason I choose Proverbs 3:5-6 as my life’s verse is because early on in our ministry we have learned that God makes no mistakes, so why trust in ourselves or anyother, but God. We’ll continue to pray that God will show you very clearly His will as He opens the doors of ministry to you. Love Dad

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  2. What a wonderful lesson to learn, and probably one God will use in your life to help others later on. Know that our family here in Indy is praying for all of you!

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